And though worms destroy this body

the football

the rowing

the (shit) music

the convos

the drives

the guitars 

the pub dinners 

the lowry

the quays

the cars

the train journeys

the trips out

the cities 

I miss it all and more. I miss you

You loved this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lb2K6TsMmgo

2.5 years later, I still think about you every day. 

I had a feeling I could be somone

Right, Tracy Chapman, not not not cool, I know, but fast car, wow. 

It's really quite grim if you listen to the lyrics. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dl6yilkU1LI

And this... so hopeless and helpless. Sadness in a-cappella. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Gbi_d7Ryew

I Once Was Lost, But Now Am Found

Insecticide 24 (2009) by Mat Collishaw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HoTHg3qvCag&feature=related

Two perfect things. I miss OH, who is travelling and this is for her, not that I want to squish you or anything, OH.enjoy.

tell me, do you really think you'll go to hell for having loved

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) 

The Fall Upwards

Because I love life.

'I like life, that's my real weakness. I Like it so much that I have no imagination when it comes to what is not it.'
Albert Camus ('La Chute')


(above is Henry Ossawa Tanner's 'The Banjo Lesson' of 1893)

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I am doing a third blog in a row, because OH won't fucking post one. 

I'm sending very big evils over the internet. 

But, I've recently been doing a lot of research into UK slums, and how they have changed over modern day. 

What I found shocking is how little the inner city ones changed from the early 1800's to the 1950's, whereas the rest of us were getting TVs, Radios, cars and a few inches round the waistline, people on our door steps were living the same as people in their class had 150 years ago, and when compared to how the rest of the country was living, they were more deprived. 

Wrong?

I think so too. 

I will FORCE OH to do another blog soon. 

o bleib bei uns

firstly, I must apologise for never letting OH post before I go do another. 

Secondly: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1kzF2sgZpg wow. 

I adore this. It really moves through, with the gorgeous "o bleib bei uns" part towards the end, with a good little chamber choir is completely and utterly stunning, there is almost a sort of hurt behind it, which I think is a vital component of all the best choral music, take "o for the wings" by mendelssohn, which easily reduces many people to tears, or allegri's miserere. 

Rheinberger's Abendlied is stunning, something that you can almost hear whilst walking around an empty cathedral, but sounds equally wonderful ringing round a small victorian parish church with shocking acoustics, provided you have a choir with at least one good person for each part, and it will never fail to sound utterly stunning. 

The version linked to are the cambridge singers, who are under the directorship of John Rutter, of whom I am not a fan, but this is a good version, I hope you find it as powerful as I do. 

Enjoy